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hey! today is a ok day i think XP well it started out ok, quite fun==music & PE lesson XD but today i realised more than ever, so many things have been upsetting me. my heart feels like its breaking. i dont know how long i can bear it. today i went for sailing, i felt it was awesome. our coach was nice! everything went well & i didnt capsize. as i looked out the sea, i missed someone. she's my best fren. i cant wait for the time she would be standing next to me, preparing to sail. it seems so near & yet so far, i wrote : DORA, BFF. and the waves washed it away. dont give up ra! jia yous! i noe one day we'll sail together~ after sailing we went back up shore. i was drenched & the wind was soooo strong! *shiver* but we got through it~ 

then we went to bath & when everyone was done, i saw my fren's sailing jacket. as i saw it, my eyes filled up with tears. i missed it so so much. i saw hers & i was reminded of my own. no one can understand how impt that jacket it is to me.

 As i type this, silent tears fall down my face that no one can see. 

my heart is breaking. can u see that? i don't know how long i can bear it.